Unforgettable Memories

Again and again The memories flood my mind, Intense, deeply felt, Strong, piercing, Tightly impregnable, hard. I am bracing myself against the wall, Trying to unwind In prayers! Only this way does The tension in me break.     It takes a long, long time To cope, to soften the pain, But these memories Resurface again, Again, and again.   I am trying to Rescue my troubled mind From Auschwitz-Birkenau, The gruesome site. I cling to hope for this memory To unwind—to leave, So I can again cherish my life For a time. by Hilda Lebedun...

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O, My Back!

My spine decided It needed more attention From me! It really seriously Let me know Its attachment to me. I did not know It needed much care Until I wound up In Intensive Care. How far we came From open-back surgery. The computer helped With the analogy Deep puncture tubes Were made To deliver cement To the painful Broken spine. Twice! After orders From the docs To take very good Care for my fragile spine! And follow The orders given For my daily life! Period! There are many things I cannot do, Some absolutely not! Remember the Horrendous...

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Upset

My resilience is fading, But I try to hold it tight. I had this kind of discomfort Many times before. I just did not think The problem would again return, Especially from Long before. I am visiting The Tooth Fairy Every week, And that upsets Me the most.   –Hilda Lebedun (Sept. 2012; rev., Feb. 2013)

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In Memoriam

My being is engulfed in deep sorrow. The loss of my dear sister Selma Is very hard to swallow.   I am trying to digest the loss, The sadness, pain and tears Which follow. . . . I am trying to reverse this By remembering our growing up together And listening to classical music On the Victrola, Needing winding And changing the recording, We did not bicker What to play We liked the music anyway. It made me remember How we took care Of each other In the Holocaust.   How we enjoyed being alive and hearing that we were free! How we tried...

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A Prayer for Answers

Again and again I reminisce About my life. How can I forget the pain and the degradation which was perpetuated in terrible transgressions upon my soul, my body, and the very depths of my being, causing me horrendous strife in my life. How many years Have gone by And I still miss The ones I loved And lost, Not only that I lost them— But how they died! They murdered them In their prime– And I still Love them All the time! And I have New ones to love And cherish. I cannot forget The ones I loved And lost, And I still mourn And—O, God— I...

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Memories: Auschwitz-Birkenau

Dear God, You let me come To the twilight of my life– This, my life. . . . How many detours I walked— How much pain and suffering I endured. How much pain and suffering Of others My eyes have seen. How many screams I witnessed Of the horrible Agony of dying!   How I prayed to You Not to let me die In this undescribable shame. You heard my prayers And pleading, and, By Your grace, I survived again Against all odds By Your mercies. What a carnage!   God, why did You Let it happen? How can we atone For our sins, Restore our...

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