Who Does Not Want to be Perfect?

Perfectionism as a personality trait may have many causes, but only Jews have their tribal history as justification. Rather than power, our neurotic aspiration is towards a semblance of perfection so that we will be endured, accepted, loved. Not by God, but my our neighbors. I myself am helpless against it. Hatred of the Jews…

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A Good Death

When my mother died several months ago, I was aware of both sadness and a selfish concern over the inevitability of my own death. As I watched her slip away towards the end of a long dying, I saw not my mother, but a corpse struggling to breathe. When at last she lay in morphine-induced…

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Book Review: A Morning Star

A Morning Star by Andre Schwarz-Bart Recently I read, and then bought so that I can reread and reread, a book that’s been calling out to me: A Morning Star, written by the French novelist, Andre Schwarz-Bart, and posthumously finished and published by his wife Simone, also a novelist. The first novel that he wrote,…

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Kristallnacht Wiedermal

Friends ask when I write, Again? Again, the Holocaust? Aren’t you ever done with that? I guess not, I say. It’s with me, like a jagged scar that doesn’t heal but stings and aches, forever.   Novembers specially open up the scabs, images of Kristallnacht rising to freeze my heart – black-shirted, black-hearted SS men…

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Questions Without Answers

I thought I was done thinking about it all, but then I came across an article on the Internet about Minsk that made me remember my maternal grandparents again. And wonder. It took a good chunk of the twentieth century to teach my grandparents how small the world is. Their own ancestors had wandered from…

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Being Something

I thought I was familiar with the degradations that even short hospital visits can inflict, so, when my doctor recently ordered a stress test for me at the hospital lab, I walked in with a certain devil-may-care attitude that was meant to pass for medical sophistication and answered, over and over, the usual questions about…

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